July 9 2016

Cha…cha…changes

One of the best things about being a creative person is that I’m all into learning new things. From reading different genres, to trying new recipes, to DIY home projects or DIY beauty stuff, to reading books about self-improvement or creativity or spirituality or how to be more creative. BUT, what I haven’t been very good at, at least not in some areas, is follow-through.

Take this blog, this website for instance. I spent money to have my own website, to have it hosted, and yet I haven’t been blogging regularly. I used to blog every day. THEN, I started posting videos on YT and the blog sort of took the back seat. Why is that? I wondered.

It felt a bit repetitive, redundant to say the same thing on the blog post that I was saying in the video. It is a lot of work to maintain both.  All of the above are truths but they are also excuses.

About me: My Truths...
About me: My Truths…

I don’t owe anyone an explanation, not really. The blog is more for me than anyone else, especially since I don’t have that many followers, not like I did on my old blog, but at the same time I feel like I should say something, which says a lot about my character. About who I am, how I am as a person. I often feel the need to defend myself. Like I’m not good enough. Not smart enough. Not talented enough. Not pretty enough. Not…you get the drift.

Back in April I decided to make some real changes. I called it “Taking back my life.” I did well with some things. I have lost 10 pounds since April 15th. I’ve been exercising more, trying to make better food choices, better life choices, like eating healthier, meditation, walking, and eating less (portion control).

From Designs by Planner Perfect, by Jenny Penton
From Designs by Planner Perfect, by Jenny Penton

I’ve also signed up for #projectme with Jenny Penton’s #plannerperfect, and I love it. Such a great group of supportive and inspiring ladies. I feel really good about it. But most of the work to “take back my life,” is about making real changes. It’s about letting go of negativity, letting go of false truths (as Jenny said), and being my authentic self, opening myself up to and using my talents, my gifts.

I’ve been thinking about what those talents are. I am a natural giver. A natural helper. I am also a creative person. My passions are reading (books) , writing, art (watercolor especially), journaling, life, love, family–my grandson is so amazing. Just because you’re passionate about something doesn’t mean you’re talented at it though. I’m a decent enough writer, but I’m no Shakespeare, Vonnegut, Poe, Stephen King, Jim Butcher, Nora Roberts, or Bradbury (and yes, I’m a fan of all of those–I told you read a variety of genres). I’m a halfway decent enough (amateur) artist, but I’m no Danny Gregory or Jane Davenport.

However, just because I’m not as talented as (say my idol) Stephen King, or Danny Gregory, doesn’t mean I don’t have any talent. I can hone my talents. Get better. I can find my “niche,” my gift and use it, utilize it, and perhaps one day get paid for it. I’ve seen people find their forte their niche, and before you know it they’ve got an Etsy shop, then a website instead, and they’re using their passion and their gift (talent) and instead of just “working” they’re getting paid to do something they love.

My inspiration page...
My inspiration page…

One of my truth’s, I’m writing my novel series for me. I’ve always wanted to tell the story of a (my) family’s curse. I grew up hearing about the “Burgess” curse and the idea has always been in the back of my head. So I’m writing a book about it. While the book is based on a truth, it’s a fictional book. It’s not like I could/should/would give my novel’s family the surname Burgess (which is my real name, well it was my surname is now my middle name), though I have seriously thought about it. Instead I’ve went with my father’s (my daddy) first name, which also happens to be a surname–Milton. It works and I like it.

I’ve also been thinking about drawing/painting the cover myself. Hey, I can watercolor halfway decent, and I love drawing and painting with watercolor. But more than that, I wouldn’t have seriously thought about creating the cover for my book myself until I started working on “taking my life back,” and on #projectme.  I might have entertained the idea briefly, but I would have second guessed my capability to do it, my talent…and I’d have talked myself right on out of doing it.

I’ve been slowly but surely working on becoming a morning person. I’ve also been working on being more confident, and less negative about myself. I won’t lie and say I don’t have self-doubts, I do. But each day, those self-doubts are less and less.

Now, its time to work on my novel.

June 27 2016

Let’s talk about #onebookjuly 2016, bullet journals, planning, and stuff

A couple of years ago I heard about #onebookjuly on YouTube.

ONE BOOK, ONE PEN, ONE MONTH… I thought, there’s no way I could use just one notebook for planning, art journaling, regular written (diary style) journaling, and all the other things I do…

You see, I’m a journal/notebook (office supply) junkie. Hello, my name is Burgess and I’m a journal, office supply, coffee, chocolate, book addict.

But the more I thought about it, especially over the past few months since trying and failing more than one #onebookjuly, I realized I needed to do something. Back then I was using a Filofax for planning, or at least I was trying to use a FF for planning. I was using a Moleskin for my regular journaling… I have tried the Hobonichi, Traveler’s Notebook’s (TN) with fancy and plain inserts, a Fauxbonichi, a thick black journal, a sketchbook,  and a Productive Luddite Really Big Notebook…I’m sure I tried other things, but those are the one’s that really stand out.

I gave one FF (the personal size) to a friend, sent her Happy Mail that made her day, which made my day, and the A5 FF that I still have I haven’t used in I don’t know how long now–I was converted to using a TN. Then came along the bullet journal… I tried. I tried in various ways, especially since I’ve always been a “list maker,” a “to-do” list kind of person.

I used to use those yellow tablets (or the white one’s) and make a list of my my “to-do’s” and when I started it I’d make a check mark, when I finished it, I’d make the check mark an X–that way if I was interrupted I knew what I was working on…

So when I happened across the YT channel Rhomany’s Realm and saw not only info about bullet journaling, art, planning, TN’s, and #onebookjuly, or MissVickyB’s YT channel with video’s about all of those things, and Carie Harling’s videos…I felt like it was fate, destiny…I just knew that I could finally get my planner peace, one book (to rule them all). Only I tried #onebookjuly and realized I love journals, and I like having some separation of journals… I don’t want every single thing in one journal, BUT at the same time I would like a sort of Omni-Journal that I could use for my planning and for my regular art, sketchyourday, illustrateyourday, Hobonichi, Fauxbonichi, Smashbook style journal(ing).

I tried using a Leuchtturm1917 for my bullet journal, and my TN for my “art” journal, and then I tried using the Leuchtturm for all of the above (the paper isn’t all that great for the watercolor, markers, etc at least not with the abuse I put paper through since I’m heavy handed when it comes to watercoloring–I’m a newbie so give me some slack). The Leuchtturm’s paper is awesome for writing, though I have to say the Rhodia’s paper feels better when using a fountain pen. I love the notebooks, but not for art/watercoloring.

So off to find something else I went. The Hobonichi would work, especially since I love Tomoe River paper, but being limited to one page for day made me feel creatively caged. I needed to be free to use up as many pages per day as I wanted. Some days I draw more, some days I write more, some days I add a little bit of everything…I wanted something I could use for all of the above: bullet journaling, art, writing, collage, watercolor, ephemera, pictures, etc… I didn’t want to be limited by the paper, the page number, etc.

THEN low and behold, I found out about Nanamipaper’s Seven Seas  A5 journals with Tomoe River paper. The Standard has plain Tomoe River paper, the Writer has lined TRP, and the Crossfield has dotted TRP. I fell in love. Once I got hooked on them, I found out how hard they are to come by. They’re almost always out of stock. Back to searching again. Since I’ve tried the Stalogy 365 journal with Tomoe River paper (TRP), and now the Mystique with TRP from Taroko Design shop, which so very similar to the SevenSeas Crossfield. Pricewise they’re pretty much the same, but the shipping is a bit more–though Taroko Design’s journals aren’t out of stock nearly as often as the Seven Seas journals are.

Now, on to why I’m once again trying #onebookjuly.

I am the proud owner of 3 A5, 1 PP (passport sized), and 1 FN (fieldnote’s sized) #Jonelifish TN’s.  (TN’s made my Jonel Imutan). She is an artist, and her work was worth every penny and the wait. My bifold A5, otherwise known as Shakespeare–my writer’s notebook/bible, my trifold A5, otherwise known as Hans (after Hans Christian Anderson) –my art/life TN, my corset trifold A5, now known as Tennyson, is my spiritual/witchy TN, and my PP is used as a wallet, and the FN is used a mini writer notebook… Not to mention that I have a Buteo Bunker TN (wide). SO…With all of those TN’s, and their various uses, I really felt the need to streamline, especially since bullet journaling in separate notebook wasn’t really working.

Streamline. Get back to the basics. Figure out my goals, how to use my beautiful works of art (my Jonelifishes) to their full potential. Thus, my participation in #onebookjuly2016, even though I failed previously. You see, I really like the idea of one book (to rule them all), BUT I know it’s not completely me, so if I can streamline what I’m doing, all that I’m doing, into one TN, then I believe that will help me set up my TN’s (once this challenge is over) in a way that really works for me. Plus, I’m glutton for punishment.

I’m already participating in the #HotandSticky summer novel writing challenge, and #campnanowrimo july starts, and #onebookjuly2016 V. 2.0 is one book, one project, one month, so I’m combining V1 and V2 and making mine: one book (TN); one bag (with watercolor pencils, watercolor brush, a fountain pen (my TWSBI Eco) with Noodler’s Bullet/Waterproof ink, and whatever else will fit into that one little bag; one project (one of the july journal/art challenges), and one month…. WHEW!

Plus, July is my grandson’s birthday month, and my birthday month.

YES…” M.O.O.N spells moon” (Stephen King’s THE STAND reference).

SIGH!!! I’m adding my “Let’s talk about #onebookjuly2016” coffee chat video so if you’d like to see some of what I talked about here you’ll be able to… I’ll take some pics and write another post once I have everything together and set up.

Thanks y’all!

June 3 2016

Happiness is…

For me Happiness is being the writer who is writing, not the writer who is waiting on:

inspiration, motivation, mood…

And a good cup of coffee.

It’s also being busy. And this summer I am going to be so busy. Not only am I participating in the Summer Novel Writing challenge called #HotandSticky, started by YT channel Stripped Cover Lit, but I’ve also started working on the 12 week self guided course from Julia Cameron’s third book in the Artist Way series called “Finding Water.” What, you skipped book 2 Walking in the World? Yes, I did. Eventually I’ll get to that one, but since I’m also doing an exercise a week from her book The Right to Write, (and yes I was doing them daily but it got to be a bit too much when I had my meltdown a couple of weeks ago and was a bit paralyzed creatively thanks to depression and anxiety) I thought Finding Water was better suited to me at this time.

And, this is preparation month for July’s Camp NaNoWriMo. WOW! Busy, Busy, Busy!, which makes me happy, happy, happy. And a bit stressed out, but the good kind of stress.  Working with, around, and despite or in spite of Anxiety, Depression, and ADHD, I find that when I stay busy I function better. I am not saying that I should overwhelm myself with things but having a routine, a plan, sticking to certain rituals, help, but if I don’t have things to do, other than housework, writing, art, journaling, etc then I find myself procrastinating more. “Oh, I’ve got time for that later… I don’t have much to do, let me just watch some Netflix or Hulu…” and then hours later, after having watched half of the third season of Grimm and I haven’t gotten anything else done. (In my defense, I watched the first two seasons, missed the third and half of the fourth… SO I was a bit lost with the whole Grimm’s baby, Juliette/Eve, and Adalind thing. And Truble? I had no idea of who she was, but she looked a lot like Nick and she was a Grimm, so some lost relative? I had to know.)

I’ve given a great deal of thought to my routine. My morning and how I want to start each morning, my goals for the day, for the week, month, year…And the thing that keeps surfacing during these “brain dump” sessions is “get more organized,” “get on a routine and stick to it.”

So I’m trying to do just that. 😀