Holiday Coffee Chat: 2017 Review and Finding my Why
A few years ago (2014 to be exact), I watched a video by Carie Harling called What’s Your Why Not? That video got me thinking and I changed a few things after thinking… why not… Recently, I’ve been thinking a lot about my WHY. I’ve been reading Vlog Like a Boss by Amy Schmittauer, You Are a Badass: How to Stop Doubting your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life by Jen Sincero, and The Simple Living Guide by Janet Luhrs–each of these books has at least one part that talks about your WHY. Why. Why. Why is my WHY so important?
As 2017 comes to a close I’ve been reviewing how my year went, whether I achieved my goals, what goals I want/need to migrate into 2018, and what my new goals are. I’ve also been thinking a great deal about what worked and didn’t work, and why. There’s that word again. I really liked Carie’s view–Why not? Why not follow your dreams? Why not change things? Why not work towards improving yourself, your brand, your creative endeavors, your creative work space, your outlook? Why Not do the hard things? The hard things are sometimes more difficult because of the why. What? What do you mean Burgess? Of course the hard things are hard. They wouldn’t be hard things if they weren’t hard. Weeellll… sometimes the hard things are hard because we either don’t really understand something or maybe we don’t know how to do something, or maybe, just maybe, we’re letting our fears, our self doubts, our anxiety overcome us and we’re making it harder than it has to be. At least that’s my biggest problem.
When I first started YouTube I was a blogger. I had no real desire to put my face on the screen like that. I had real anxiety about being in front of the camera, I was a behind the camera person. I am not photogenic. I am shy until you get to know me–a real introverted extrovert/ambivert. I don’t like being in front of the camera, nor did I know anything about filming a video, much less editing a video. I learned via trial and error and watching a LOT of YouTube videos. I’m still learning, but I’m a life long learner so I don’t mind the learning new things part, it’s the getting comfortable and efficient when it comes to filming and editing that has been the bane of my social media existence–I am getting more comfortable in front of the camera, but editing… well, that’s very much still a work in progress.
Speaking of works in progress, marketing myself, using the tools that are at my disposal, and branding myself… part of my WHY for 2018 is to work at all of those. Not only have I not utilized the tools at my disposal (in part out of ignorance and in part out of anxiety), but I’ve struggled with figuring out my niche, and if you want to brand yourself you really need to know what your niche is. I realized my niche was right in front of me but I couldn’t see the proverbial forest for the trees. I’m a giver. As an INFP and sometimes an INFJ (depends on the season), I am a helper, a do gooder, a sharer… I like helping others. I enjoy inspiring and motivating others, and I’ve found that vlogging and blogging are really great ways to do that.
In order to help, inspire, and motivate others, I need to be able to reach people. Reaching more people is something I could have been doing more of but due to a lack of social media know-how I simply haven’t been doing to the best of my ability. My blogging hasn’t been consistent the past couple of years. My online presence has been sporadic on IG, Twitter, and Pinterest. So in 2018 that’s going to change. I’m going to be utilizing the tools at my disposal, along with learning new skills, And as much as all of this “learning new things, trying new things,” scares me, I’m also excited about it. Marketing myself, putting myself out there like that, scares me. It makes me feel awkward and uncomfortable. But if I don’t market myself. If I don’t put myself out there then who will? If I don’t take myself seriously then who will? No one.
I’m finding my way, and the hardest part is finding the balance between home, career, family, and R&R. “To live a creative life we must lose our fear of being wrong,” but we most also learn from our mistakes, and 2017 taught me that I have to:
- Take myself and what I’m doing seriously
- I can’t do all of the things all of the time
- I’m only one person but I am stronger than I think I am
- Braver than I think…
- I am worth it
- I deserve it
- I matter
- I have to believe in and invest in myself
- I can do the hard things
- I love what I do and getting paid to do what I love is a wonderful benefit but not my why…
- My WHY is much more than a paycheck or recognition, it’s self-fulfillment, it’s the knowledge that I’m helping others…that I inspired someone, motivated someone…